I know I've been a really, really bad LJer recently, but I hope to get back to it shortly. At the moment I am counting down the days until I leave for Vienna, and am thus having to say goodbye to lots of people, which is surprisingly difficult to do. It's weird because it's only a year I'm officially away for (at the moment I intend on coming back, but should things change, that's a different matter), but some people seem to be acting as if I'm leaving forever, with the things that they're saying! There is only one problem with this: it keeps making me cry. It's weird because all these people keep saying really lovely things and saying how much they're going to miss me, and it's geniune. It makes me feel... loved...

Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
http://twitpic.com/iqm93 i love my guides
im gonna be so hopleless come monday
Samantha says:
why?
Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
i will end up crying
again
Samantha says:
aww =(
Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
i was ok earlier until someone was asking about vienna etc and i was saying that it all felt a bit surreal at the moment, but before i was really quite scared
but i mentioned that some of my friends had said some of the thigns that got to me and got me all weepy
at which point i cleverly closed the conversation and walked off
so i didnt cry
and im SO glad i didnt manage to read the card when i was there
Samantha says:
aw yeah
it'll be ok, though
Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
i know
but im just in one of those frames of mind where anything thats sweet or nice etc will make me weepy
i feel so... loved... at the moment, its really strange
Samantha says:
it is a good feeling, though
Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
yeah it is
which is why it seems silly then that i end up crying over it
its just nice to know that actually i mean something to people
and you dont often get to see that reaction
Samantha says:
crying is a normal reaction to that, though
Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
yeah
i guess
i know its just a year and im intending on coming back, but it could be as if im leaving forever the way some of the people have been talking
its weird to hear how much theyre going to miss you
and be able to see that its geniune as well
Samantha says:
it says a lot about how good of a person you are when so many people care that much
Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
and now you are going to make me cry again
Samantha says:
hahaha sorry, i didn't mean to!
but it is true
Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
its ok. its happening a lot recently!
just dont do what adam did when i said that to him
i said people kept saying really lovely things about me and it was making me weepy so he asked whether he should start saying really horrible things instead
Samantha says:
hahahaha
Frau Bekki - Kaiserin der Welt بكي says:
hes a muppet but hes my friend and has been for howevermany years... 4?
its such an adam thing to do too


I know I'm still going to be around online from time to time, but I just want to take this opportunity to say that I have some really good friends on here, and that I am glad to know you :) Obviously I can't say truly that I will miss you, because you only know me online, but I will miss you. I assume that the next couple of months will be a LOT busier than my recent months, so I will miss posting on here, and reading my friends page et al. I know I have lots of things to talk about (namely Germany) and I will get around to it at some point. Pictures are all uploaded now, so it shouldn't be so hard to talk about it all, when I find real time.
In the meantime, while I am not so active on here, I am still active on Twitter, for it is easier to do quick updates there, and reach lots of people at once. However, I will be back soon, I hope.

I hope to make it on here and post again before I head out to Vienna, but if I don't, I will see you all there :)